REALITY

R E A L I T Y
Why did I have to dream about them?
It’s like they’re haunting me for what I did.


I opened my eyes again ,but to my surprise, I wasn’t in that weird place anymore. I looked around and at the corner of my eye, I saw the tree house, the place of my death. Why am I here? Why am I back to the place I tried hard to escape from? I started walking, nearing the tree house, and that’s when I saw him.

“Hiro..” I whispered. He was heading for the tree house. Why? Why was he going there?

I followed him as he went up the ladder. I couldn’t get the bad feeling off my chest. I was feeling that he was the one…

“TANZIE! Wake up!”

who found me.. Oh, sh1t.

“Sh1t. Tanzie, what have you done?” He had that frightened look on his face while carrying my lifeless body down the ladder . He shouted for help, and unlike what happened to me before, someone came. And it was my sister.. Tara.

“What happened?” She stroked my lifeless body’s hair. She was actually crying..

“Tanzie, baby.. Come back to us.” He whispered. But I seemed to hear everything. They were both crying. I guess they lost hope coz’ they didn’t bring me to the hospital. Maybe, I was already dead.

“I wish I could.” Tears were falling down my eyes. Sh1t. That was the moment I regretted what I did. Can’t I go back to them? Can’t I live a normal life again?

I kneeled down in front of them. I touched my body but nothing happened. I looked at Hiro and Tara and to my surprise, they saw me. They saw me as a spirit and both were speechless.

“Tara, Hiro, I’m sorry. Please say you forgive me.” I said once I realized that they can also hear me.

“No Tanzie. It’s our fault.” Tears were streaming down his eyes. I haven’t seen him cry like this before.

“We wanted to tell you Tanzie. I guess, we made a huge mistake. Come back to us Tanz.”

“I can’t. I’ve done the damage and I can’t go back.” I said.

“Tanzie. Please, come back to us.” Stop it Hiro, please.. I can’t take it anymore..

“I can’t. I just want you to know that this isn’t your fault. You should never blame yourselves or my soul will never find peace. Please, do this last thing for me.” I knew that my time was running out. My body, or whatever you call it, was getting lighter by the minute. I have the feeling they’re taking me back to that place.

“We can’t do that Tanz, It’s our fault. If we told you the truth, this wouldn’t happen. The blame’s on me.” She buried her face in her hands. I was shaking. I was shaking because I wanted to hug her and I wanted to tell her that I love her so much and she shouldn’t blame herself but I can’t. I just know I can’t. I’m a spirit and spirits can’t touch people.

“Please. Don’t blame yourselves. I love you both and you should know that the fault is mine. Tell mom and dad that I love them and that I’m sorry. I’m sorry I was stupid enough to kill myself and never think of the consequences. I’m sorry, to both of you.” My hands were fading. Time’s running out.

“Tanzie..please,don’t go.” Hiro..my love. I love you. Even though you left me, I still loved you. I don’t think I’ll love any other person.

“Tanz..I’m sorry..” Tara..my ever-loving sister. Despite what happened between us, you will always be my sister. I’ll always love you the same way.

“Goodbye. I’ll love you forever.” I looked at both of them and once they stood up to stop me, I turned my back.

Goodbye forever, Tara, Hiro..

And the darkness swallowed me up yet again.

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“Hey, open your eyes.” I heard a voice say. I slowly opened my eyes and I saw his face.

“Good. Now drink up.” He offered me a cup containing a brownish fluid. It’s color was almost like ---feces. Ugh.

“Drink it or you’ll be in pain again.” Once he said that, I took the cup and emptied its contents to my mouth. It tasted horrible but if it took away the pain, then it’s worth it.

“Thank you.” That was all that came out from my mouth.

“Don’t thank me. I just didn’t want to hear you screaming again.” Wait. I was screaming?

“I was..screaming?” I asked.

“Yeah. In your sleep. My guess is that you came back to the place where you died.” I stared at him. How did he know?

“It always happens.” He answered like he read my mind. Hm.

“You also went back----“ He cut me of.

“To the place I died? Yea.” He said. I nodded and again, I stared at him.

“Since when?” I asked.

“It was a long time ago.” It was obvious that he didn’t want to share. Oh, who was he? He helped me and all but I don’t even know his name.

“Who are you?” I blurted out. He simply smirked and answered my question.

“I’m Kiyo. I was wondering when you’d ask that question.” He smirked yet again and looked away. Hm, I guess he didn’t want to know my name.

I stood up and looked out the window. There it was, paradise.. Maybe a look-a-like paradise. Coz’ pain shouldn’t exist at this kind of scenery. At the looks of it, it’s supposed to be a happy place but as Kiyo said, looks can be deceiving. I learned that the hard way. Tsk.

“What is this place?” I said, loud enough for Kiyo to hear.

No one answered. That was strange. He always answered.

I turned around to face him but..

All I was facing was an empty room. Kiyo was gone. She burst into tears yet I couldn’t do anything.