THE TRUTH

T H E T R U T H
I wanted to know the truth about this place.
Little did I know, the truth was completely disgraceful.


TANZIE’S POV

“I know this place.” Yuan said when we reached Kiyo’s place.

“Of course. You’ve been here before me.” I replied. I was wishing he’d tell me when he died.. or how..

“Kiyo. Kiyo took care of you.” He stated. I realized it wasn’t a question. It had a sense of realization.

“Yeah.” I replied even though he wasn’t asking. I looked at him curiously.

“I gotta go.” He scoffed and took off. That --- was weird. Why do people here just disappear when you’re talking to them? Tsk.

I entered Kiyo’s place once again. I didn’t know where else to go. This place, obviously isn’t familiar to me. I sat on the nearest chair coz’ I wasn’t feeling good. Pain was brewing inside my body and it continued spreading. There it was again.. PAIN – pain beyond imagination. I shouted. I shouted yet again coz’ the pain was just too much. I fell out of the chair and I was writhing with pain on the floor. I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders. Kiyo? Have you come to save me ---- again?

“Drink this. It’ll take away the pain.” I heard a person say. I wasn’t sure who it was. I couldn’t open my eyes. The mystery person opened my mouth and poured some liquid into it. It had the same taste as of the brownish fluid Kiyo made me drink. Seconds later, the pain was gone. And I was able to open my eyes. Right in front of me was a girl. She had short hair and was beautiful. Like Yuan, she was like an angel. She was about my height and about my age too. But I don’t think you age at a place like this.

“Thanks. I don’t want to be rude, but who are you?” I asked her.

“Ysxa. I take it, you must be the girl Kiyo saved.” She answered.

“Yeah, but how did----“ I asked but she cut me off.

“I know? Kiyo told me.” She continued.

“You know him?” I asked.

“Well, yeah..” She answered. She looked at me from head to toe and shook her head.

“Wh-what’s wrong?” I asked. She was making me nervous.

“Kiyo was right. You’re fragile—and precious. Grayer would really want you as his slave.” She stated. I didn’t quite get what she said.

“Grayer?” I asked. Who was Grayer? Kiyo never mentioned him.

“Oh I’ve said enough. Kiyo should be the one explaining this to you. Wait for him here. He’s the only one that can tell you what this place is.” She said. She shook her head once again and said her goodbyes. Once I nodded, she walked out of Kiyo’s house and was out of my sight. At least she said goodbye, unlike the others.

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KIYO’S POV

His voice echoed inside his chamber. He was mad---I could tell.

“DO YOU KNOW WHAT I COULD DO TO YOU?!” He shouted. Oh c’mon, I’m not deaf. I could hear him even if he didn’t shout.

“SPEAK UP YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF CRAP.” And again he shouted.

“SHE NEEDED MY HELP.” I shouted myself. If he shouts, I shout.

“SHE IS EXACTLY WHAT I NEED, AND YOU TOOK HER AWAY!” Oh he was really mad.

“Well, you can’t take her away from me now. I found her, and I’m gonna keep her.” I know I’m making him madder but I don’t know what with that girl. It seems like I want to protect her from the wrath of Grayer.

“I’LL MAKE YOU PAY MATSUMOTO. YOU’RE FORGETTING THAT I’M YOUR MASTER AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY SLAVE!” His voice made the floors vibrate. His madness was sure to hit the other residents of Grayer’s Hill.

“You can’t have her unless she surrenders to you or I give her away. And neither of that is going to happen.” I retorted. I was braving his madness because of what? Because I wanted to protect her? Dang it, what was I doing?

“Even if I do this?” His voice was almost a whisper. I didn’t see what he was doing. What did he mean by-----

“AAAAHHHHHHHHH!” I shouted. I couldn’t control myself. He was making my whole body painful and I didn’t know how to stop him.

“You don’t know who you’re messing with. I can’t hurt her but I can definitely hurt you.” His snake-like voice echoed among the walls. I closed my eyes and the next thing I knew-----










The pain was gone.










I opened my eyes, and right in front of me was …… the girl I was trying so hard to protect.


“Hey, what happened to you?” She asked. Care and concern was painted on her face.

“UH—I passed out.” It was all I could say. I didn’t want her to know about my encounter with Grayer.

“Can you stand up?” I didn’t realize I was already kneeling down. I nodded and stood up.

“How did you find me?” I asked due to my curiosity.

“I heard you screaming.” She answered honestly. I was screaming? I thought I only did that when I was in his Chambers?

“Well, thank you.” I said.

“It’s the least I can do.” She smiled at me. It was the first time I saw someone smile at this place. She was really----different.

“Um, can I ask you something?” She asked innocently. I nodded and she continued talking.

“Who’s Grayer?” I knew she was bound to ask that sooner or later.

“Let’s walk. I’ll tell you about him, but not here.” Not where he can still hear.

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TANZIE’S POV

We walked for a very long time. He didn’t speak to me and I was too shy to ask where we’re going. He helped me through the pain and I shouldn’t doubt him.

“We’re almost there.” He finally spoke.

Within seconds, we reached a place overlooking the sea. I couldn’t help but smile. It was beautiful. I could hear the waves of the sea and the sounds of different sea animals. I looked at Kiyo and he pointed at the big rock. We walked to that rock and sat down.

“It’s so beautiful here.” I stated. I just couldn’t help myself.

“That’s all part of his plan.” I looked at him curiously.

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“You asked me about Grayer. Then I should tell you about him.” He said. I looked at him anxiously and listened.

“This place is called Grayer’s Hill. Grayer runs this place. He’s considered the god here. He hears everything that happens in this place.”

“Then he hears what you’re saying now?”

“Yeah. He should. But I brought you to the place he would never bother to look. The sound of the waves irritates him. This is his least favorite spot in his world. I was hoping he won’t find out that I brought you here.” He admitted.

“Go on.” I encouraged.

“You’ve got to understands that Grayer lusts for you. He’s want you to be his slave----or worse, his mistress. Once he has you, he can do whatever he wants and you can’t be let go unless he’s tired of you.” He said.

“But why does he want me? There are many people here in his world, why me?” I asked.

“He wants someone like you, beautiful, charming, precious, regretful and different. You were full of regret once you came here, that’s why he was drawn to you. You’re different from the others. You can smile without him noticing. He always notices and I don’t know why he doesn’t notice you. Maybe because of you, you weaken his power and I don’t know how.” He admitted. He looked away and continued on what he was saying.

“Without you as his slave, he’s scared. He’s scared that you can find the way out of this place while he still lusts for you.” He said. I was curious enough to ask..

“There’s a way out?”

“Yeah. But no one has ever found it. Coz’ when they’re on the quest to find it, Grayer always stops them. You, on the other hand, can look for it without him knowing. He doesn’t know you’re on that quest since he has no power over you at all.”

“He has no power over me?” I interrupted. I was lost and confused.

“None at all. In this place, the one who first touches you is your founder and he has power over you. In your case, I found you so wherever you go, I know where you are. It’s like you’re a part of my body. And that’s why Grayer is furious with me. He wants you and he can’t have you unless you yourself surrender to him or I give you away. You must never surrender to him. You won’t like what he would do to you.” I nodded.

“I broke the number one rule of this place. And he knew that the moment I touched you. That was why I was screaming a while ago. I just came from his chambers.” He admitted. So he was hurting because of me?

“Maybe I should surrender. He’s hurting you because of me.” I said. I don’t want to hurt my savior.

“No. Don’t. Either way he’s going to hurt me. You surrender to him, he’ll keep me as his prisoner because I broke his rule, and he won’t let that happen again. Since you’re still in my possession, he can’t hurt me physically. He can only make my mind think that I’m in pain so my whole body would hurt. If I block that kind of thinking, it won’t hurt..at all. So, promise me you won’t surrender to him.” And once again I nodded.

“What are the rules of this place?” I asked.

“One. No one should touch a newcomer. That was pretty obvious. Normally, the newcomers are brought to Grayer so he could be their founder. If he doesn’t want that person as his slave or mistress, he releases them to this world where he can still play with them whenever he wants.” He explained.

“So, many of you were released?” I asked in which he answered thru a nod.

“Two. You cannot show happiness. That’s why we barely smile here. That’s the reason why he punishes anyone who shows a sign of happiness.” He elaborated. I nodded as a sign of understanding and he continued.

“Three. You should only follow your founder. In our case, we only follow him but in yours, you follow me.” I nodded once again.

“Last rule. You cannot love. That’s the most important rule of this place. You should not feel love. Once you feel it, he sends you to his chambers. And those who came in with that offense, never came back out. No one knows what happened to them.”


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HIS WORLD

H I S W O R L D
We’re like dolls in which he can pick up and play with anytime.
If we can’t escape this world, he will always be our master.


TANZIE’S POV

I went out of the little house for the purpose of finding Kiyo, but I couldn’t find him anywhere. How could he just disappear like that? How could he leave me without any information about this place.?

I continued walking, trying to find someone to talk to. I wanted so bad to know what this place is, yet, no one’s here to tell me.

“AAAHHHHHH!” I heard someone shout. I searched for the source of that voice and, finally, I was successful.

The voice came from a girl with disheveled hair. Her clothes were torn and she was running barefoot. She was running away from something and I couldn’t quite see what. I ran so I could follow her.

“Why are you running?” I shouted so she could hear me. The moment she heard my voice, she stopped.

“He’s gonna get me. He—he—“ She collapsed right in front of me. I kneeled down to help her but suddenly..


















She grabbed my shoulders-----hard.









“What are you doing?!” I yelled. I was still shaking from what had happened. I was in pain again. Not the kind of pain that came from the inside, it was pain from her hold upon my shoulders. She was squeezing it like a bottle of toothpaste that was about to run out.

“Let go of me!” I continued shouting but it wasn’t doing any good.

“You’re one of them! You want to hurt me.” She whispered, but enough for me to hear.

“I don’t want to hurt you!” Once I said that, she let go. I thought it was over but I was wrong. Very, very wrong.

She was crawling away from me. Her face depicts fear and ----- respect.

“I was---she—NO!!” She shouted. I reached out to her but she ran away and disappeared. I looked around but she was gone..

I turned around in the hopes of finding my way back to that house but instead, I bumped against a man’s chest.

“HEY!” The man shouted annoyingly.

“S-so-sorry.” It was all I could say. I was frightened by the way the girl looked at me. It was like I was supposed to be feared.

“Hey, why are you stuttering?” The man asked. I looked up and I saw his face. Even at a place like this, he looked like an angel.

“There--girl---and—uh—ran away—scared of me.” I couldn’t speak in straight sentences. All I could say were phrases that when put together in a sentence, doesn’t make sense.

“Okay, I’ll pretend I understood that.” He smirked at me and helped me calm down.

“Just forget about what happened. Strange things always happens here.” I looked at his face once again and somehow, I forgot about the incident. His eyes were simply hypnotizing --- in a good way.

“Thanks, --- uh” I cut myself off since I didn’t know his name.

“Yuan.”

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KIYO’S POV

What the fcuk was I thinking? That girl.. whatever her name was, I shouldn’t have helped her. I broke the rules of this place. And I’m damn sure he won’t let me get away with it.

“Kiyo.” I heard Ysxa’s voice.

“What do you want?” I asked.

“I saw what you did.” She stated.

I knew it. Once she knows, he knows. Damn it.

“I didn’t mean it okay?!” I shouted.

“But you know the rules Kiyo!”

“Yeah, but---“ She cut me off.

“You also know the consequences of your actions!”

“Yeah, and---“

“Damn it Kiyo! When are you going to listen?!”

“I KNOW THAT, ALL RIGHT?!” I raised my voice, enough to stop her from scolding me.

“It’s not like I’m ignorant, Ysxa. It’s just.. You know how hard it was for me to wake up at a place like this---“

“And that’s how it’s supposed to be, Kiyo. That’s why you should have left her there in pain!” She looked away. Deep inside, I knew why she was acting this way.. Sooner or later, he’ll call upon me and punish me for what I did. And Ysxa, already experienced that kind of punishment---she helped---.

“I just couldn’t leave her there. Grayer’s men were walking around and if they saw her there, you know what they’d do! They’d keep make her a slave and keep her in the dungeons! With the looks of her, I think Grayer would like her to be his personal slave.” I just knew it. I only saved her because of that. Grayer is fond of women who are beautiful and simply precious. And that girl, the one I helped, was even more than that. He’d want her but he can never take her forcefully. Because, I was the one who found her. And in this place, the founder is also the keeper. They can’t have her unless I give her to them, willingly.

“You do know what will happen now, right?” She asked, with concern in her voice.

“Yea. He’d summon me to his chambers.” She nodded and sighed. She gave up on scolding me coz’ that wouldn’t do anything. He’d call upon me either way.

I sat down on the wooden chair and waited. Waited for his words. Waited for the voice that’ll echo upon this place.

“SHOW ME KIYO MATSUMOTO!” There it was. His voice was rough, mad and threatening. Dang, I’m doomed.

“Come back. Promise?” I nodded but I didn’t really mean it. I didn’t know if I was really coming back. I walked out of Ysxa’s house and went to the nearest portal.

“GRAYER’S CHAMBERS.” I stated clearly. The portal turned black and I stepped into the darkness. Once again, I felt the swirling and the turning inside that portal. The portal dropped me flat on the floor on the entrance of his chambers. I stood up and walked down the dark corridor. It wasn’t a long walk coz’ I saw him immediately. Well, I didn’t really see him. No one does. He’s kind of a silhouette. A simple shadow. He doesn’t want anyone to see him as he really is.

I stopped walking 5 steps before his throne.

“Kiyo Matsumoto.. YOU HAVE DISOBEYED ME!”


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REALITY

R E A L I T Y
Why did I have to dream about them?
It’s like they’re haunting me for what I did.


I opened my eyes again ,but to my surprise, I wasn’t in that weird place anymore. I looked around and at the corner of my eye, I saw the tree house, the place of my death. Why am I here? Why am I back to the place I tried hard to escape from? I started walking, nearing the tree house, and that’s when I saw him.

“Hiro..” I whispered. He was heading for the tree house. Why? Why was he going there?

I followed him as he went up the ladder. I couldn’t get the bad feeling off my chest. I was feeling that he was the one…

“TANZIE! Wake up!”

who found me.. Oh, sh1t.

“Sh1t. Tanzie, what have you done?” He had that frightened look on his face while carrying my lifeless body down the ladder . He shouted for help, and unlike what happened to me before, someone came. And it was my sister.. Tara.

“What happened?” She stroked my lifeless body’s hair. She was actually crying..

“Tanzie, baby.. Come back to us.” He whispered. But I seemed to hear everything. They were both crying. I guess they lost hope coz’ they didn’t bring me to the hospital. Maybe, I was already dead.

“I wish I could.” Tears were falling down my eyes. Sh1t. That was the moment I regretted what I did. Can’t I go back to them? Can’t I live a normal life again?

I kneeled down in front of them. I touched my body but nothing happened. I looked at Hiro and Tara and to my surprise, they saw me. They saw me as a spirit and both were speechless.

“Tara, Hiro, I’m sorry. Please say you forgive me.” I said once I realized that they can also hear me.

“No Tanzie. It’s our fault.” Tears were streaming down his eyes. I haven’t seen him cry like this before.

“We wanted to tell you Tanzie. I guess, we made a huge mistake. Come back to us Tanz.”

“I can’t. I’ve done the damage and I can’t go back.” I said.

“Tanzie. Please, come back to us.” Stop it Hiro, please.. I can’t take it anymore..

“I can’t. I just want you to know that this isn’t your fault. You should never blame yourselves or my soul will never find peace. Please, do this last thing for me.” I knew that my time was running out. My body, or whatever you call it, was getting lighter by the minute. I have the feeling they’re taking me back to that place.

“We can’t do that Tanz, It’s our fault. If we told you the truth, this wouldn’t happen. The blame’s on me.” She buried her face in her hands. I was shaking. I was shaking because I wanted to hug her and I wanted to tell her that I love her so much and she shouldn’t blame herself but I can’t. I just know I can’t. I’m a spirit and spirits can’t touch people.

“Please. Don’t blame yourselves. I love you both and you should know that the fault is mine. Tell mom and dad that I love them and that I’m sorry. I’m sorry I was stupid enough to kill myself and never think of the consequences. I’m sorry, to both of you.” My hands were fading. Time’s running out.

“Tanzie..please,don’t go.” Hiro..my love. I love you. Even though you left me, I still loved you. I don’t think I’ll love any other person.

“Tanz..I’m sorry..” Tara..my ever-loving sister. Despite what happened between us, you will always be my sister. I’ll always love you the same way.

“Goodbye. I’ll love you forever.” I looked at both of them and once they stood up to stop me, I turned my back.

Goodbye forever, Tara, Hiro..

And the darkness swallowed me up yet again.

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“Hey, open your eyes.” I heard a voice say. I slowly opened my eyes and I saw his face.

“Good. Now drink up.” He offered me a cup containing a brownish fluid. It’s color was almost like ---feces. Ugh.

“Drink it or you’ll be in pain again.” Once he said that, I took the cup and emptied its contents to my mouth. It tasted horrible but if it took away the pain, then it’s worth it.

“Thank you.” That was all that came out from my mouth.

“Don’t thank me. I just didn’t want to hear you screaming again.” Wait. I was screaming?

“I was..screaming?” I asked.

“Yeah. In your sleep. My guess is that you came back to the place where you died.” I stared at him. How did he know?

“It always happens.” He answered like he read my mind. Hm.

“You also went back----“ He cut me of.

“To the place I died? Yea.” He said. I nodded and again, I stared at him.

“Since when?” I asked.

“It was a long time ago.” It was obvious that he didn’t want to share. Oh, who was he? He helped me and all but I don’t even know his name.

“Who are you?” I blurted out. He simply smirked and answered my question.

“I’m Kiyo. I was wondering when you’d ask that question.” He smirked yet again and looked away. Hm, I guess he didn’t want to know my name.

I stood up and looked out the window. There it was, paradise.. Maybe a look-a-like paradise. Coz’ pain shouldn’t exist at this kind of scenery. At the looks of it, it’s supposed to be a happy place but as Kiyo said, looks can be deceiving. I learned that the hard way. Tsk.

“What is this place?” I said, loud enough for Kiyo to hear.

No one answered. That was strange. He always answered.

I turned around to face him but..

All I was facing was an empty room. Kiyo was gone. She burst into tears yet I couldn’t do anything.

THE AWAKENING

T H E A W A K E N I N G
I opened my eyes to a different world.
A world that makes me wanna go back to where I was.


The darkness swallowed me up like it was waiting for me a long time ago. I waited for something to happen.. for something to immerse from the darkness, but there was none. There wasn’t even pain. Is death really this easy? You wouldn’t feel anything? I waited a little longer but nothing happened. Maybe I’m not dead. Maybe those painkillers failed in killing me. Fcuk. I should’ve used a gun. It would’ve done the job.

That’s when I felt it.

PAIN. Pain beyond imagination. It was like I was ran over by Space Shuttle a dozen million times. It was like I was bitten by Edward Cullen or Damon Salvatore a hundred times. It was like I was having a nightmare over and over again. It was like I swallowed painkillers that contained a rose’s thorn. It was pain that a human person cannot endure. It would’ve killed him. I guess I’m already inhuman or in other words, dead, Because,I survived it.

After all that pain, I felt nothing.

Maybe it hadn’t stopped. Maybe my body was already numb to the pain. I tried to move but it was impossible. It was like I was trapped in a small box where I couldn’t move a thing.

After a few minutes or so, I dropped on solid ground. And like a button was pressed, I was able to move again. I stood up, looked around and searched for a person or anything to tell me where I am.

I was successful. Sitting on a big rock, there was a boy. A boy about my age but he had a different aura. It was like the more I neared him, the more I felt sadness beyond what I felt when I was still alive. Despite that, I continued walking to him. I wanted to know where I was. Was this purgatory or hell? Coz’ I’m sure that I’ll never step foot in heaven. I may not be, what you call an active Catholic but I still was baptized as it. I know that what I did was equal to murdering another person. What I did wasn’t in God’s will so technically, I disobeyed his words and I guess, I’m stuck here in this place to pay for what I’ve done.

I was 5 steps away from the boy. I guess he doesn’t know I exist coz’ he just stares at nothing while sitting on that big rock.

I took another step. 4 steps to go. And another, 3.. And another, 2..This is the last one..1..

The moment I took that last step, it was like I was in a different world. I didn’t just see the boy sitiing on the rock. I saw him surrounded by trees, little cottages and people swarming over a fountain. It looked as if I was in paradise.

“Don’t let the looks of this place deceive you.” The boy ,sitting on the rock, suddenly spoke.

“What do you mean?” I replied.

“Just don’t. Believe me.” And after he said that, he walked away from me without even showing his face or introducing himself. I guess he’s not a people person.

I continued walking, looking for someone to ask where I am. This time, I was unsuccessful. No one seemed to notice that I was here. They didn’t even give me a single glance. Where am I? Why didn’t that boy tell me? Why didn’t he show me the way?

“Hello?” I started calling out, but no one seemed to hear me. They just continued on what they were doing as if I was invisible to them.

“Can anyone please help me?” I called out a little louder but still, there was no response.

“PLEASE?!” I was shouting on the top of my lungs but no one seemed to care.

“Can someone please show me the way?” I was getting tired. I was already feeling weak after walking a few steps.

“I’m tired. Please, somebody..” My voice was fading. The pain was back. I could feel it erupting from the insides of my body. A burning sensation fell over me. I was on my knees. I kept calling for help but nothing came out my mouth.

I tried to gather the strength that I had left. And with that I called out.

“Pain. I feel pain. Can someone please show me the way out? PLEASE?!” After that, I felt like my whole body totally weakened. I drained my last remaining strength by calling out to no one. I guess, no one’s here to help.

Before, I completely passed out, I heard his voice again.

“I wish I could but there’s no way out.”

And with that, I let the darkness swallow me up again.

INTRO

I N T R O
I regretted my decision..
I don’t know if I can ever take back what I’ve done.


I opened my eyes, looked out the window and smiled. The sun is up and about and so am I. Nothing can ruin this day for I’m going to see my 3 year-long boyfriend, Hiro. Of course, I see him everyday but there’s something different about today and I have no idea on what it is.

I readied myself for this event. I brushed my teeth, took a bath, got dressed and prepped myself up. When I was done, I left a note on the kitchen table and I was off to La Vista Park. When I arrived, he wasn’t there yet so I sat down and waited for him. After 1 hour or so, he finally arrived.

“Hey Baby.” I hugged him and kissed him fully on the lips. He smiled at me and gestured for us to sit on the nearby bench.

“What’s up Hiro?” I asked.

“Tanz, I need to tell you something.” He answered. I looked into his eyes and waited for him to speak up.

“This is hard for me to do but you’ve got to understand. Okay baby?” He continued. I just nodded.

“Tanz, I want to break up.” He finally said it. Seconds passed before I spoke up. Maybe my brain was still processing the surprising words that came from Hiro’s mouth.

“Excuse me?!” I retorted.

“I want to break up Tanz. I’ve had enough of this relationship. It’s been what? 3 whole years? Don’t you think we have had enough of each other?” My heart was beating so fast and my throat started to dry up. I didn’t know what to say. It was like my world was crumbling down in front of me and I did nothing.

“I just don’t love you anymore Tanz. Or maybe I never did.” Now he’s telling me that he never loved me? Dang it. My whole body went numb. I couldn’t feel anything. It was like my body was protecting me by locking down my whole system so I wouldn’t feel a thing.

“Tanz, I guess this is goodbye.” And he walked away, without even hearing what I have to say. I let this happen. I made this happen. I kept quiet all the time he was talking and I let him walk away. This is my fault. He’s gone and he’s never coming back. As soon as I realized that, the long awaited tears and an ear-splitting scream finally came.

A Week Later

I stood up and I went straight to the bathroom. My eyes were puffed and it was obvious that I cried myself to sleep. Yeah, I’m still crying over him. I called him a lot of times, hoping that we’ll get back together if I do, but obviously, he doesn’t want to. He doesn’t even answer the fcuking phone. Damn it. I miss him. I love him. I still do.

I went downstairs and I saw my mom’s painkillers on the kitchen counter. I put it in my pajama’s pocket because daddy doesn’t want it lying around. I looked around for my parents but I couldn’t find either of them. It was then that I heard a noise in our guest room. I couldn’t quite hear it clearly but there is definitely someone there. I slowly opened the door and peeked inside. And dang, was I stupid to do that.

What happened inside definitely made me want to throw up. You wanna know what it is?

Hiro was banging my sister. Oh s h i t. He dumped me for s e x. I didn’t want to do it so he turned to my sister who’s all up for the anti-virginity act.

I was outraged. And the next thing I know..

“What the hell?!” I shouted. They stop doing the deed and both looked at me.

“Tanzie, this is not what it looks like.” Oh c’mon, screw that s h i t.

“Then tell me, what am I looking at here?” I questioned. They fell silent.

“Tara, you were there for me when I first cried myself to sleep because of Hiro but all that time, you were the main reason why we broke up? DAMN IT TARA! Screw you! Oh wait, Hiro already did that!”

I walked out. Neither of them followed me. Good. I wanted to be alone. It started to rain but I ran and ran until I reached the village’s playground. Drenched from head to toe, I climbed up a ladder and I went to the shelter of the tree house. I lied down and let the tears pour out. I turned to my side but I felt a hard thing on my pajama pocket. My mom’s painkillers. An idea went through my mind. I took the painkillers out and poured everything on my hand. There were about 30 pieces of painkillers on my hand and I just smiled. They want me out of the way so they can bang all they want? Well fine! I’ll give them their own satisfaction.

I used my right hand to carve a simple message on the tree house wall.

Goodbye. I hope you’re both happy. –Tanzie

It was then that I swallowed the painkillers one by one. And by the time I swallowed everything, I simply lied down and waited until the darkness swallowed me up.

And it did.


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Prologue

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Grayer's Hill
Can you save me from this misery?
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Pain. Suffering. Misery. Sadness. Devastation.
Everything that makes us turn our smile upside down.
I ended my life for it but now I have to deal with it.
I made a huge mistake and I'm paying for it.

I'm stuck in this after-life until I find the way out of here.


Grayer's Hill is not and never will be a paradise.
It's a place where people suffer because of their selfishness.
It's a place where everything is there to make you suffer.

It is said that there's a way out, but no one knows where.

Can I find that path? Can it save me from this misery?


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